Some what back

I'm some what back. Thank you all so very much for your kind words, its meant alot in this difficult time. This last week and a half has been an emotional roller coaster. My moments of crying are starting to subside a bit. My siblings and I spent last Thursday and Friday cleaning out my dads house. Thurday night sitting in my living room with 1/4 of my parents belongings lying on the floor, thats when it started to hit me, he's gone, there both gone. We're all trying not to blame ourselves, because its not going to do us any good.

I didn't cry this much when my mom died 11 yrs ago, but she was sick and bed ridden for her last couple of months. We had time to get used to the fact that she was going. No one expected my dad to end his life. My brother- inlaw, the one who found my dad isn't doing well. We're all just kind of fucked up right now. I know this has made me stronger. I have contemplated the act myself from time to time......now......never. I've been on the other end of it and would never put anyone through this grief.

We're going to wait till summer to clean out the garage. Then once the house/land gets out of probate it will go up for sale. I spent every Tuesday with my dad, I'm going to be lost tomorrow. I've been distracting myself with cock, mostly Scooby's. Friday the hot redhead is going to pound a load down my throat. And I might be rendezvous'ing next week with a hot furry poz guy and having hot meaningless mansex in a cheap motel, so things are ok.

My Union sent a beautiful floral arrangement. I'm kind of dissapointed with my job. Yes my boss showed up to the memorial service and his boss sent me a card, but the people I clean for in my main building, the people I see everyday, didn't do anything, not even a card. One lady said she was sorry to hear the news the rest acted like nothing happened. My co-workers didn't do anything either. A card would have been enough. I've been here for 17 years, I feel like I deserve at least a card.

But then when my mom died and I was still working on campus the people in that building all signed a card for me. Then when I got back from berevement leave, one of the ladies asked if I had been on vacation......and she had signed the card.

Anyway, thank you all again for the kind thoughts and wishes. I will be ok, like that saying goes, "that what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger".


Update: I did end up recieving a card from my coworkers and one from one of the three dept. that I clean for.

break

I've been debating whether to post this or not, but I need to take a break for a week or two maybe a month.

My father was a very strong and adamant person. After living through his own mothers stroke and nursing home confinement he vowed that he never wanted to get to the point that he had to go to a nursing home and didn't want to be a burden on us kids.

Yesterday morning he woke with a bad headache and the shakes and all we can guess is that he thought he was having a stroke and he ended up shooting and killing himself in his home. He was 87. He was a very happy person who loved his family and this has been a total shock for all of us. It was a very long day which included me and my nephew and Scooby yesterday evening cleaning up the scene once the police cleared it and confirmed it was a suicide.

Needless to say I'm a mess right now.....but I will be back.

I don't understand why you did it, but I love you dad and will miss you so very much.

Hyped

I decided to go online and check out the local state University's website and I'll be god damned if they have two full time openings for custodians and one part time call in position. I immediately applied. One of my friends mother works as a custodian there and said I could use her as a reference. YES! I'm sure that the full time positions will go to others that are already in the part time call in pool, but hey maybe I can at least get my foot in the door. This State University also acknowledges same sex unions in there health insurance. double YES!!

I asked my boss today if I could get a copy of my last evaluation. He said I could....in a kind of sad tone. He knows the shit thats going on with the big wig Nazi boss, so I'm sure he knows the reason I want my evaluation. With 16 yrs experience of University cleaning and a great evaluation backing me up, I'd say I have a good chance of getting the fuck outta here.

I'm so fucking hyped.....

Work rant

Well I had planned to tell another vacation story about my sexual exploits but work is starting to fuck with us again and our Nazi ruler is on the rampage.

I was told before Christmas break that we could no longer borrow our cleaning equipment to take home and use. At first I thought, "Oh well, no biggy". That is until I just found out today that the new rule is just for our department. Any other University employee can borrow "OUR" equipment and take it home and clean their carpets/ floors and furniture, but not us. Now I'm thinking WTF.

The Nazi is also threatening to take away our paid Holiday between Christmas and New Years.

It all started with our fucked up Union and our Union steward. In the past we have had shift differentials, meaning first shift gets base pay and second shift gets like 35 cents more and third shift gets like 1.00 more an hour than base pay. If you work a different shift you get paid the differential for that shift. Our stupid ass Union decided they wanted to change that and that if you normally work say second or third shift you would get that pay when ever you worked and the people who work first shift would get base pay even if they worked second or third.

It sounds totally fucked up to me. Basically first shifters get fucked and thats not fair. But anyway like I said this was the Unions idea. I work off campus so was not informed of any of this till it took effect. Apparently coworkers were asked and most agreed to the changes. Dumb fuckers. When our Union people went in to sign it one guy decided against it. This infuriated the University and they whined that they have gone through too much to just forget about it. So it became effective with out our Union reps fully agreeing. Then the guy that disagreed had to work OT and got screwed out of money since he works first shift. He filed a greivance, yadda yadda yadda.

So the fight ensued and now 0ne by one the Nazi is taking away any benefits he can that is not in our contract. This job wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the Nazi fucking asshole. I wish I could afford to quit. I do plan on getting together a resume and start looking for another job asap. Some place that doesn't discriminate against gays and doesn't have a mentally abusive person in charge. Is there such a place?

Today

I'm slightly hung over today, which normally puts me in bottom mode. Today is no exception. Thanks to "Craigslist" we've been corresponding for the past week with a ex marine with a extremely high sex drive. Apparently he can fuck all day/night and cum multiple times. Tells us he will give us as many loads as we are willing to take. He's been sending hot self pics all week, some of them hot action scenes. He's from here but has been out of town and is getting back today........ Did I mention his arms are covered in tattoo's that connect across his chest.

Details to follow.

Funk

Thanks for the well wishes guys. I am feeling a bit better. Besides the cold, I've just been in a fucking rotten mood for the last week. My therapist irritated me last week. She, like alot of people have no fucking clue about the side effects of HIV meds and how they affect some people. We talked about Scooby and how he's not working and how it puts alot of pressure on me, being the only income, working full time (manual labor) plus 4 house cleaning jobs. She thinks that I should give him an ultimatum that he get a job or I won't take him to New Orleans anymore. She just don't get that the meds make him fucking sicker than a dog constantly throwing up in the mornings. The meds give him vertigo also and he can't ride in a car without getting close to barfing. I honestly don't know how he is going to handle the drive down to NOLA in a couple of weeks. I'm really considering stopping therapy, I don't see where its doing me any good.

Then I go to my dads and he starts showing me pics of my neices last visit. These are the ones that said they would NEVER except me as a homo and that I'm going to Hell. I looked at the pics uninterestedly thinking to myself I don't care to look at pics of these ignorant bitches. My sister was in one pic and I thought she is really looking old. I haven't seen or talked to her in almost a year. Surprisingly I did get a Christmas card from her the other day and decided to send one to her also, I always sign them "Love Mike and Scooby". Ha

Work has completely refused to add Scooby to my health insurance. Which gives me one more reason to hate my full time job. Fucking bigots....

I cut my hair and trimmed my beard the other day, hoping it would put me in a better mood. It kind of helped, feel a bit sexy again. In the beginning of the week I just wanted to stop my meds and let this disease take its course, but my sadomasochistic inner child refuses to let me. Ha

We've decided to leave Christmas day for New Orleans. Gonna stay with our friend the Crisco kid until that Friday when our timeshare week starts. Should be fun.

Sick

UGH! I've been battling a sinus infection for 3 weeks now and I believe its now turned into a full fledged cold. When I was at the Dr. last week I mentioned my sinus infection and all he had to say was, "Yeah you and everybody else". Nice.... So I'm a bucket of fucking snot and I feel like shit. Not sure if I'll be posting much this week.

Spineless creatures

It's the end of the year and time to renew our health coverage for 2007 at the learning institution that I work for. Enclosed in the email our director of healthcare noted that if we had any questions to email her.

So I did.....

Hi (name of healthcare director),
It has come to my attention that many of the BIG Universities in Michigan are now acknowledging same sex domestic partners and allowing them to be included in healthcare packages. I was wondering if we were doing this also, if so I'd like to add my partner of 9 yrs. to my health insurance.

Thank you, Mike (last name here)

First week.....no response
Second week......no reponse.... so I sent it again
This is the third week and I still haven't heard anything

I highly doubt that they do include same sex domestic partners considering this institution was founded on Christian morals and beliefs, but for God sake get a fucking backbone and just tell me no.

Update: Well I called and left a voice mail and got an email back Thursday confirming that NO the education establishment that I work for doesn't acknowledge domestic partners and they can not be included in our health insurance. At least I got it in writing or email, God forbid I have to file a wrongful death suit against them in the future.

I've been working like a dog at work. I spent last week scrubbing tile floors and now this week waxing them. Hope to update in the next day or two once things start slowing down a bit. Had a good Thanksgiving with the family. The weekend was chock full of sex starting with a 4- way on Saturday and a 3-way on Sunday. Details to follow.

Hope everyone had a great Holiday!

Happy Thanksgiving

Things I'm thankful for: Scooby, friends & family, our house, my job(s), and this four day weekend, cuz I've worked like a dog the last two days.

A secret: I love the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade

DudeTube

OMG! I'm obsessed with the webcam clips at DudeTube. Free gay porn, it doesn't get much better then that. Granted there isn't many hairy guys but beggars can't be choosers.

Congrats Berlin, Germany you were my 25,000 visitor! Sorry that you only visited for less then a second.

I guess I need to start experimenting with fisting more to get Germanys attention.

Weekend recap

I meant to post sooner but got preoccupied. My vertigo is subsiding a bit, still don't feel completely up to par but I'm going to ignore it like everything else. I got to go to the Dr. in the next few weeks anyway, I'll mention it then.

Anyway Friday went pretty smoothly with working all day. Had just enough time in between jobs to grab a bite to eat in McD's drive thru and head to the car wash to wash off all the accumulating bird shit. Friday night turned out interesting, called a our friend Thurston that I haven't seen in a while. Asked him if he had time for friends or was he too busy with his next victim/ fuck buddy. (I tried calling him last week but he was busy with someone in his sling in the basement.) He was free so Scooby and I headed over.

We planned to just visit but one thing lead to another.... An hour later the jazz and blues was playing over the stereo and I was strapped in the sling with Scooby and Thurton fucking me from both ends. Scooby was taking control of my ass while Thurston fed me his 9in. cock. Then Scooby and I flipped and we put him in the sling and Thurston and I took turns filling his hungry holes. We ended up fucking around till 4:30 in the fucking morning. Since it was getting early we headed home and Scooby then fucked me till 5am and then we crashed. I'm still recouperating from Friday night.

Saturday and Sunday was spent cleaning the computer room/office. I can finally see the top of my desk. We didn't do too much else. Other than Sunday I had my usual trip to the other side of town to play with furry poz guy. After we got done, I then headed to the other furry bear down the street to play with him. Then it was off to the fruit market for the weekly salad/veggie stuff and then home. I finally found whole cranberries to make the cranberry relish for Thanksgiving which I did up later that day. I got this recipe from one of the famous chicken places in a near by town. It is fantastic, so I thought I'd share:

Cranberry Relish

1 lb. Northern Spy Apples
1 lb. Dark Red Cranberries
2 cups sugar
2 peel-on Whole Navel Oranges

Freeze Cranberries solid. Wash and core apples-leaving the skin intact. In a food processor, add half of frozen cranberries and half apples and turn to chop speed so that pieces are a quarter inch square. Chop the entire pound of apples and cranberries and place in large mixing bowl and mix with sugar. Then chop the peel-on whole oranges to the same consistency and mix with apples/cranberries/sugar. Let stand one hour before serving/freezing for later use.

I like it better if its been frozen. Enjoy

Vertigo???

Yesterday Scooby and I was driving downtown to go out for lunch and I was stopped at a stoplight. I sat there watching the cars whizzing past in front of me and things started to get blurry and I started to get nauseous. I haven't felt well since, my heads been floating in a semi altered state. I don't feel all that bad, but I don't feel all that well either.
I've also been really tired and sleeping a lot this week. Tomorrow I start my new cleaning job which means I'll be working from noon till almost 3pm then I work my FT job from 3pm till 11pm. God just get me through tomorrow.

Jesus H Christ just let me fuckin VOTE

Ok I got up early this morning and headed to Wenona School wear the voting booth is....normally. The place was deserted. Wenona school is no longer there and neither are the voting booths. FUCK
So I head to my therapist appt. in Saginaw at 9am. Do that. Head to Midland to my Dads, clean his house and have lunch. I call Scooby and he recieved a new voter registration card with the new address on it. So I head back to Bay City and YES I found the new voting place at Pines Towers senior complex and voted.

So far Jennifer Granholm our current Democratic Governor is ahead. YEA! She's running against Dick DeVos the heir to AMWAY empire. I'm sorry but I don't think people who own chemical companies should be allowed to run for office. The are so not environmentally friendly. Another thing we need to have restrictions on one sign per canidate per property. There are people here that have like 50-100 fucking DeVos signs on their property. Its a fucking sickening eyesore. If this happens next election, I think I might report them for blight. "evil laugh"

The Brooklyn Chowder Surfer

Ben Sargent is my new crush.... He was on Martha this morning making chowder. Man I'd like to taste his.... Wish I could find a pic of him to post, want to know more click the title link to his site.

Not much new going on. Got Scooby's van running, the brakes fixed, ect. Then called the guy that was wanted to buy it. He drives 2 hours to get here and the fucking thing won't fucking start. Scooby just had it running 2 hours before. FUCK FUCK FUCK Someone out/up there hates us, I'm convinced.

Yesterday I was awake by 8:30am.
1. Got up and fed the cats
2. did two loads of laundry
3. washed the kitchen and dining room floor on my hands and knees (it was filthy from the party)
4. ran to the south side of town and played with my furry poz fuck/suck buddy
5. came home and raked up 5 bags of leaves
6. then went to work

Shit thats enought to make my head spin...

Jello shots are not my friend

OMG! Someone brought jello shots to our party and that was all she wrote for me... The actual party is very fuzzy, but I'm told that I turned into a pumpkin by midnight. Didn't have as many people but most came in costume and everyone had a great time. Unfortunately donations this time were meager so it looks like I'll be probably working some overtime in order to pay our liquor bill. We've got tons of food and alcohol left and all I want to do is quit drinking, but not until all the alcohol has been consumed out of the house. LOL

I came too around 3am just in time to help clean up. Went to bed and found a bearded sexy man naked and sleeping. Note: the guys that were suppose to come and spend the night from ManHunt/tease never showed. Surprise....not. Anyway back to the guy in our bed. Scooby came to bed also, the guy woke up all frisky so Scooby started fucking him and I commandeered his mouth. His mouth felt fantastic and my cock swelled to mass proportions in response. We fucked that guy silly and he loved every inch of man meat that we plowed his holes with. What a fun little bottom he was.

It also looks like I've got another house cleaning job starting next week. The extra cash will be nice. The guy is also gonna pay me to help him clean out and sort his basement. We finally had a day with out rain today so I badgered Scooby into finishing up his brakes on his van so we can sell it and sure enough while we were out there bleeding the brakes a couple of people stopping to check it out. I will be so fucking happy if we can get that van sold....

This week...

Spent the week finishing up getting ready for our party and cleaning up from last nights night of drunken dabuachery. The three of us got shit faced drunk last night and Scooby wiped out the bathroom upstairs breaking the glass containers we used to keep cotton balls and Q-tips in. We are all banged and bruised up. One of us fell off the front porch and creamed one of my small lilac bushes. You can still see the imprint of whoevers body in the iris's along the porch. None of us can remember who it was that fell off the porch, but we're all in sad shape so maybe we took turns. LOL

I also found a half eaten apple laying on the floor of the foyer.

A confession and the Halloween party

Ok I'm finally admitting it....I love Project Runway. And yes, I've watched all three seasons. I have to admit though that I was surprised that Jeffery won. His final stuff really didn't make me go wow. Laura's was her predictable High New York Glam. And Michael's was cool, but didn't wow me either. Actually it was Uli's that impressed me the most, she had finally gotten away from those Florida style prints. But anyway congrats Jeffery. I loved it when Uli told Laura, "You won, you made Jeffery cry".

I liked Laura other than she's a baby factory. 5 kids and a 6th on the way, I'm sorry but this irritates me. I grew up in a farming community that is quickly being eaten up by urban sprawl and it makes me sad. I really feel that if we continue populating like we have that in a couple more centuries the only country side our future will know is what they read in story books. Sorry if I offend anyone but thats how I feel. My own sister has 6 kids. Her one son married a woman with two little kids, he then knocked her up two more times and now they have 4 kids under the age of 5. Stop already....

Next subject,

Our Halloween party is next weekend and I still haven't decided what the fuck I'm going as. Its down to Nosferatu(vampire) or Pan (greek mythology).
I've done the vampire thing....alot, but not Nosferatu style. I find him to be the scariest looking vampire of all time, the original movie not the remake. I found a coat like his and bought some pointed ears today. The thing is I'm gonna have to practically shave my head and face. I say practically cuz I'm gonna try to just use the clippers with no setting on my head and #1 on my face. That should cut it down close enough I think. Its been forever since I've seen my face.

Pan is an old costume also. I made fur pants years ago and luckily I can still fit in them. The only thing is being shirtless, cuz its been down right chilly lately. Plus I really don't want to wear an itchy wig, which I'd have to do to hide my strap on horns.

So I think its gonna be Nosferatu, gonna have to take some before and after pics of my face once its naked.

It also looks like we're gonna have a poz sex party after the Halloween party. Got 2 poz guys coming from out of town for the party and their planning on staying the night and have peaked an interest at playing. Then there is the new furry fuck buddy guy from across town. I'm beginning to wonder how many guys we can fit in our bed.....Should be interesting.