The Dr. visit + some advice

I went to the Dr. Monday and yes we were right it is my Lymp nodes that are swollen. The Dr. said to just apply either hot or cold (I can't remember which) compress's to them and to keep an eye on them and let him know if it gets worse. He also said it was unlikely but tested me for gonorrhea. Great.... For those of you who have never had this test, they stick a large wooden Q-tip type thing in the end of your dick, which stings and burns. Fun Fun I was really surprised he didn't take a urine sample. I was thinking that my problem was possibly a bladder or kidney infection type thing, but what do I know.... Anyway still waiting for the test results.

I've recently decided that it isn't a good idea to try and be friends with fuck buddies. Either their a friend or a FB, but when you try and combine it is when it gets messy. I met this guy last fall online, he's poz also and we started having sex on Sunday mornings. Then I introduced him to Scooby and we had a three way. I also organized a four way with us and another guy a couple of times.

The day we got home from New Orleans we were dead tired from the drive. The guy called and I told him we were too tired but he insisted on coming over anyway, because he hadn't gotten off since we left. We did manage to have a three way that evening but Scooby was really tired and got kinda irritated. Our Sunday playdates kind of petered out cuz Scooby started getting up earlier and we would start working on the house. Now he wants to get together EVERY weekend.

I don't mind hanging out but I've been dealing with alot of shit this year with my fathers suicide plus I've been sick for several weeks and now with my swollen lymp node problem. Sorry but sex hasn't been a high priority on my list lately. He called this weekend and said in a pissy tone, "We're not having sex anymore so I'm just gonna stay home and get online and find someone." Which my response was, "I'm sorry I've been sick but thats cool". It felt as if he was trying to give me a guilt trip and that pissed me off. Luckily I'm getting better, but this last weekend it was painful to even walk so his guilt trip didn't work.

With fuck buddies, you call them when your horny and its your basic blow and go. I shouldn't have to explain to someone (who is not my boyfriend) why I'm not in the mood and if I have too they should understand. He asked how it went at the Dr. and I was blunt about it and told him I got tested for gonorrhea and was waiting for the results, that should cool his jets a bit....

Anyway end of rant, thanks for listening...