Today I feel.....

Like I need to go back to school.

I grew up in the time where Pink Floyd was telling everyone that we didn't need an education. Well thats all fine and dandy as long as you what to earn minimum wage working fast food ect.. The list goes on for shit jobs for the uneducated.

I know I've pissed and moaned that I want to move to New Orleans but the fact is I have no education and with out one I'd be fucked. Yes I have a decent union job now with nice benefits. But the era of unions for general laborers is coming to an end. Just recently a local school district decided to not renew the contract of their custodians and out source instead. We just got a new president where I work and he's started cutting back and letting people go and I honestly feel that when our contract is up in 5 years that they will no doubt out source us also. It's sad to see devoted employees that have worked for a company for decades just get thrown out like yesterdays garabage. But at least they have an education.

So I think its time that I get my ass in gear so I can have something to fall back on if and when this job ends. I think I've decided on Hotel Restaraunt management. Its something that is in abundance down in NOLA and everywhere for that matter. Actually I always thought it would be cool to own a bed and breakfast or a diner, so the opportunities are endless.

A note to fathers

When your taking care of your own children its not called babysitting.

Its called parenting.


Seriously some guy told me he was babysitting his kids today.

What were we thinking.....

Our city always has a big celebration for the 4th of July. Always having three days of fireworks, the first two last 10 min. and the last night being 40 min. of fireworks. Well this year they are scheduled to be on July 1-3. We live so close, you can see them from the back yard, so we normally have a party.

Well this year we couldn't decide which day to have the party. It's normally on the last night because of the big fireworks display. We figured that since the last night this year is on the 3rd that most people would have to work that day so we decided to have our party on Sunday the first night of the fireworks. Then after some thinking we figured that since most people would have the 4th off that maybe we should have it on the last night.

We couldn't decide, so we are having two parties, the first night and the last night. Now its starting to sink in that I'm going to have to make enough food for two nights. Not to mention that we have a cocktail machine that holds three different drinks at 5 gal. per cocktail choice. So for two parties we are going to end up making 30 gal. of cocktails. OMG!!!

I normally have a preparty panic attack. I have a feeling its gonna be a doozie this year....
Wish me luck

If your reading this and your in the area and want to come, let me know and I'll send you a link with the details.

RUN RUN RUN

Thats what this weekend consisted of. Saturday morning Scooby and I got up and did our Saturday morning ritual of going to the flea market. Met up with our friend Thurston there and after the three of us had breakfast at the little old diner there.

We got home and at 11am my sister calls.

Her: Are you in the area
Me: Yeah we just got home (thinking she was near my house and gonna stop in)
Her: We're buring dads ashes today and we're at the cemetery
Me: What? I thought we were doing it on fathers day weekend
Her: Just get here, we'll wait for you, bring Scooby if you want.

SHIT....I can't believe I mixed this up. So we head to the cemetery in Midland Co. which is at the least a half hour drive. We get there and bury my dad's ashes. Then we head out for the planned brunch at his favorite restraunt.... of course Scooby and I just ate so we have drinks and I have a piece of pie as everyone else eats.

Then they plan on going up to Wixom lake to my sisters trailer. Since I don't see my brothers adult daughters that much since they live in FL we decide to go also. But we have to run home first since Scooby forgot his tobbaco and had long pant on and I needed sunblock. So we run back home, get our shit together as Scooby quickly calls his mom and wishes her a happy birthday. Then we're off back to Midland and up to the lake. Despite all the rushing around it was a nice day.

Then Sunday we went out with Thurston on his boat out on the Saginaw bay. We got his boat cleaned up and I paddled around in the water a bit. It was about 7pm by the time we got home and then we headed out to the Berg for a few drinks around 9pm. We headed home around 1am.

I've been planning on cutting back on my drinking and I did pretty good this weekend. I had 3 tall boys on Saturday at the lake. Then finished the other 3 on the boat on Sunday. Then I only had 2 regular size beers at the bar that night.

Public wanking, and a weekend update

OMG! I was heading to my other building to clean today and saw this older guy in a late model truck sitting at the exit to the bank next door. He had several chances to merge into traffic but didn't. Then I noticed that his right shoulder kept shaking like he was jacking off. I think he noticed me checking him out and so he pulled out onto the road but only went down to the next parking area.....to probably finished up.

It was very warm today. I love what it does to guys.....

In other news: We had a few good friends over Sunday for a bbq. It was suppose to rain but it got it all out of its system that morning and the day turned out gorgeous. Monday we started pouring the piers for the deck we are building. Then today we ran out and got most of the wood for it. Hoping to have a good portion of it done this weekend.

I can't remember

Last night only got worse. People worked late in my building and there was a constant flow in and out of the lunch room. So I decided against eating my lettuce w/ tomato's that was in the fridge. Plus since thats all I eat Mon.-Thurs. week after week, month after month its getting a bit tiring. I had some spare change and decided to hit the drive thru at Taco Bell and grab a soft taco for dinner instead, can't beat it for 89 cents. I got there and went to order but for the life of me couldn't remember the word "taco". It went something like this.

Speaker: Hi may I take your order
Me: Yes I'll have one soft burrito please
Speaker: What kind sir?
Me: You know the soft kind, opposite of the hard shell kind
Speaker: Sir they're all soft and we have a big variety
Me: Just give me the cheapest one then. (I only had a dollar in change)
Speaker: The bean burrito then
Me: No I'd like meat in it.
Speaker: One burrito supreme, that will be 3.50.
Me: Oh forget it!

Then I backed out of the drive thru and went back to my building, about half way back I remembered the word "Taco". FUCK! Needless to say I was too pissed off/flustered and embaressed to go back so I skipped dinner last night.

Tired and down

I got out of work at midnight last night and had to turn around this morning and head back to attend my uncles funeral at 10am. He was by dads oldest brother, their wasn't much of a turn out which kind of depressed me. After the funeral/burial/luncheon I decided to stay in town until I went to work since gas is so fuckin expensive. My sisters and I went to the cemeteries to change out the floral arrangement on my parents grave so there would be a new one there when we bury my dads ashes on fathers day weekend. I also took the arrangement off my grandparents grave (mothers side) since my aunt placed two gargantuan potted plants on the grave which totally conceiled mine. I moved it to my dads grandparents grave in another cemetery since they had nothing.

While we were cemetery hopping I pointed out to my sisters all the generations of forgotten grandparents of ours. So that makes one funeral and three cemetery visits today and top it off being sleep deprived. Its probably just my mood today but have been considering ending this blog since I normally have nothing important or interesting to say here. Hope everyone has a great Memorial weekend and remember to remember the dead cuz thats what this holiday is all about.

I got to be in town all day tomorrow also cuz I have a house cleaning job before work. UGH! We are planning a bbq Sunday, I hope I can catch up on my sleep before then.

Later, Happy Memorial weekend

Another Craigslist add

OMG!!! LOL

In town for Falwell funeral, seeking discreet blowjob - 67

Reply to: pers-336534817@craigslist.org Date: 2007-05-23, 1:16AM EDT

In town for Jerry Farwell's funeral (finally the old turd croaked) --my wife is his sister-- and looking for a discreet blowjob at my hotel while she is "mourning" at her relative's place on Wed. I'm 5'11", 185#, trim, and hung. Seeking discreet dude into giving oral service. No fats, fems, freaks (saw enough of those at the funeral).

I did my research and its for real. LOL here is the link to the add

http://lynchburg.craigslist.org/m4m/

Girls are so fucking lucky

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How to beat the high cost of living

I was just reading an online news story about the high price of gas. They stated that it has hit a high this week at 3.08 a gallon. 3.08 a gallon? I want to know where the fuck they can find gas at that price cuz its 3.49 here in mid Michigan. I just fucking filled my tank and it set me back 50 bucks. FUCK!!!! I'm at a point right now that I will only get gas at a BP station (British Petroleum) cuz I refuse to let my own country fuck me in the ass.

If they're gonna screw us and raise gas prices to the point we can't even afford to drive to work then they fucking better legalize prositution, cuz that is the only way I'm gonna make enough to buy gas.

Blow jobs in exchange for a 1/2 a tank of gas. anyone?

I'm already working a full time job that only covers mortgage, insurances, and utilities, thats it no fucking extras. Then I clean bi-weekly 3 fucking houses so I can afford gas plus luxury items like toilet paper and toothpaste. At least thats the way it normally is, right now I have to admit that I do have a little stashed away thanks to my inheritance, but what the fuck am I gonna do once that runs out, which it will soon enough. I can't afford to live in the town that I work, and there are no jobs in the town that I live. Pardon the prepanic rant.

Edward Hopper

Here are a couple of prints of my favorite artist Edward Hopper the first is "Chop Suey Restaurant". I love the colors in this one.





This next one is "New York Movie 1930", it makes me laugh about the woman who is deep in thought because these days she just looks like she's on her cell phone.

Nothing new

Nothing new to report. I haven't felt all that great this week. Called in sick yesterday and slept most of the day/night and I'm still tired. Ugh Today I bought 10 bags of mulch and a couple of tomato plants. Monday I'll probably buy my flowers.

We got a good portion of the floor built on the side porch last weekend. Hope to finish up this weekend. Our camera's fixed so I plan on taking/posting some pics.

Later

Another work rant

I totally fucking give up. The art gallery I clean has had water problems in the basement since...forever. When it rains water runs down the back wall, luckily there is a sump pump that the water runs into, but its still not good for the foundation of the building. Hello.....

The problem is the underground drain. First its not big enough for a commercial building. Second the end of it that use to shoot the water out onto the side walk is now 3/4 covered with cement from the new sidewalk that was put in last year. So now the water sits in the drain with no place to go. I pointed this out to my boss who in turn told his boss.

Now I'm being told that they are going to clean out the drain. I mentioned that the new sidewalk is blocking it. Boss's boss response was "I think what we are going to do will be fine." Obviously my words just went in one ear and out the other. Plus I don't think he likes it when the uneducated help gives advice.

This isn't the first time I've had run in with this guy.....

The steps going to the gallery basement were very narrow and had a rubber/plastic surface. Well with wet shoes on, they were treacherous. I fell down the stairs and so did the gallery director. I told idiot boss man that the steps were not up to code. He then told me that he went there and measured the steps and they were fine. It took seven people falling down the steps to get them rebuilt correctly. When they were being rebuilt I asked the gallery director sarcastically why they were being rebuilt and she told me because they weren't up to code....

Not once did idiot boss tell me that I was right. But what do I know, I'm just an uneducated janitor.

Busy weekend

I got to my dads at noon on Friday and my bro and sis had just decided to end the garage sale early, which was fine by me. So we took what we wanted and divided the rest into donate and trash and two carloads to Salvation army and one to the dump and we were done.

Saturday we headed to the flea market and met up with our friend Thurston. I ended up buying one of those double baskets that fit on the back of a bike for 15 bucks, what a deal compared to the ones that sell on EBay. Scooby ended up buying a commercial Bunn coffee maker for 15 bucks also. We then headed to Saginaw to Hobby Lobby and Michaels crafts. I needed more stuff for the flower arrangements that I'm making up for my parents and grandparents graves. I also wanted to find a picture frame for my Edward Hopper print "Chop Suey Restraunt" and "New York Movie 1930". Didn't find one for Chop Suey, but I did get NY Movie framed. Saturday night we went to the neighbors and bowled on their new Wii game and drank strawberry margaritas. yum yum

Sunday was beautiful so I worked out in the yard most of the day. I condensed one of my flower beds and moved my Hosta's to make way for a new deck that we are planning. Then we started cleaning out the side porch to get ready to build the floor. Its just been a dirt floor storage area but that will change soon enough. It will eventually be the hot tub/ play room, and it will also house the freezer that we got from the neighbors.

Then before work today we went to Menards and got the fire pit they have on sale. Then we headed for Home Depot to buy the supplies for the side porch floor. Thank god they rent trucks cuz there was no way that we would have been able to get that stuff home in my Aztek all in one trip. I also bought a climbing rose bush to help shade the front porch. I really didn't want pink blooms but that was all they had so I guess it will have to do. Red would have been my first choice.

Hope everyone had a great and productive weekend like myself.

One tired puppy

Well things went pretty smoothly cleaning the rest of my dads stuff out. He really didn't have as much crap in the garage that I thought he did. We got done early enough Saturday that we actually started the sale that day. I managed to his lazyboy hauled home Friday and then his craftmatic bed Saturday night. The base of the bed is heavier then a muther fucker and of course it was going upstairs. Once we got it up there and set up Kiddo and Clyde couldn't stop smelling the side of the bed that my dad basically bled out on. Which was kind of disturbing.

Sunday I got up early and started stacking firewood from the five trees that we had cut down in the back yard. By the time I was almost done Scooby had gotten up so then we made a makeshift storage area above the side porch in order to store the siding we haven't gotten installed yet. The side porch doesn't have a floor yet so we need to clear it out in order to start building the floor, which is our next project.

Then last night I didn't sleep worth a shit. Got up early again today and did 3 loads of laundry before I went to work. Tuesday and Wednesday this week I got house cleaning jobs before work then Thursday and Friday I'm helping with the sale of my dads stuff.

Thank god I took Friday off.....

The next couple of weeks are going to be frantic. This Friday and Saturday my sisters and I are going through my dad's garage and getting ready for a garage sale the following weekend. My dad's house has been sold and final signing is next week. The guy wants to move in immediately but said we could still use the garage for the sale. oiy...... My brother was suppose to help tag everything but now he is only going to be there to help run the sale. I have no idea why he can't be there when he was suppose to, he is retired.....

A friend of ours is going to jail for 90 days and has invited us to an "I'm going to jail party" this Saturday. What do you bring to that? a carton of cigarettes?

Also we've decided to look for vacant property down in NOLA then eventually build on it. This way we can hopefully get property in a decent area and sit on it until we finish the house here. Also with Scooby building it we know it will hold up to a hurricane.

Wednesday afternoon it started snowing and snowing and snowing. Against better judgement I went to work, but ended up leaving 2 hours early cuz I wanted to get home before it started to freeze. The drive home was treacherous and the worst conditons all winter. HELLO ITS FUCKING APRIL FOR GOD SAKE!!!!! I decided that if there is a God he hates us. By the time I got to Bay City the snow had turned to rain and by the time I woke up the next morning 99% of the snow was gone. YES!

Today it was in the 40's-50's. Which I embraced whole heartedly, my cabin fever subsiding. Being stuck in the house 4 months out of the year can get a little depressing. Anyway in other news I've started teaching myself sign language and am really enjoying it. I hope the next time we go down to NOLA I'll see the cute deaf guy again, this time we can communicate a little better.

Happy Friday the 13th!

I'm so fuckin tired today. Last Thursday I went to Saginaw to clean a house and when I got there I realized that I had forgot my key to get in. So I cleaned it this morning instead, before I headed to Midland to clean my sisters house. After the first house I needed to get lunch and I still have my gift certificates that I gave my dad for Christmas for his favorite restraunt sooo I decided that it was time to use one of them. It was weird/sad eating there alone, I felt like one of those people in an Edward Hopper painting. I managed to keep it together and actually kind of felt my fathers presence sitting across the table from me, which was nice. Once I got out to the car I had a brief little cry and then headed to the dollar store.

After that I cleaned my sisters place and once I got done I had almost 2 hours before I had to be to work. So I headed to the cemetery and cleaned up around my parents, grandparents, great grandparents and great great grandmothers graves. My mother used to take me to the cemetery alot when I was a kid since we lived right down the road. We'd pump water from the well and water the plants on my grandparents grave and she would point out my great grandparents grave. For some reason I find the cemetery relaxing, so I think I'm going to start focusing more attention and take care of my families plots.

So that was today in a nutshell. I'm thinking of posting more pics here once we get our camera fixed.

For the last several days I've woken up with a really sore back. I go to bed feeling fine, but when I wake up.... agony. The bed itself is a semi new expensive bed that sugar daddy gave us a year or so ago.

Today I got up fed the cats and went and layed down on the couch with the heating pad. Ended up falling back to sleep and when I woke up all three cats where snuggled up around me. What a comforting feeling...I was on my side and Clyde was nestled in behind my legs, Puddy was against my chest and Kiddo was laying on my torso. Their not big snugglers so this was a treat.

Sunday we went to my sisters for Easter dinner. Then I played a card game with my sister, niece-inlaw and great niece. I won and then we called it a day and headed home. We stopped at my Dad's place and picked up the carpet that was out in the garage that had been replaced from his house. I plan on using it in the spare bedroom upstairs which is almost finished and the other piece probably on the back porch. Hopefully it will survive until we can get in layed down, since one of the cats has decided that it's really fun to shred the ends of it.

Happy Easter!

More random stuff

Went over to a friends house last night to have a few drinks and ended up watching Female Trouble. I'm a sponge when it comes to useless information and our host told me that the little girl who played Taffy aka Hilary Taylor now is a real estate agent in Boston. That made me wonder if she is Will's agent from DesignerBlog since he recently put his house up for sale.

Scooby drank to much and started biting and pinching me quite hard, which I didn't find one bit amusing. I kept telling him to stop, but it fell on deaf/drunk ears. Finally I pinched his ear till it got really red, then he stopped. Drama drama. It's funny how we can annoy each other when the other has been drinking. Don't know how this will unfold IF we move to NOLA.

The biting started to remind me of Jackies psycho girlfriend on "Workout". I watched most of the first season but once they started promo'ing the second season they insinuated that Jackie was back with the psycho and I couldn't watch. I got plenty of train wrecks right at home to watch thank you. That's like that fucking stupid ass reality show "Airport". Who the fuck watches that, its like all the stress of traveling but without going anywhere.

As for NOLA. I've been calculating and if I cash in the stocks that I'll get from inheritance and if my dads house sells and if I also refinance my house I just might be able to swing it. I've been advised to save my stocks for retirement, but I have a problem seeing that far in the future. I'm already 11 yrs. into HIV and I've got 25 yrs till retirement, it just doesn't seem fathomable that I'll survive that long. Hell if I could get the retirement that I have saved through work I could buy the place in NOLA now for cash. But I can't touch that $ till I'm like 65. Are there still companies that buy life insurance policies?

Male trouble and breaking hearts

I had to let go of two fuck buddies this week. The one, furry poz guy was getting possessive and kind of needy. We started getting together occasionally on Sunday mornings. I should have seen the red flags when he started expecting me to come over every Sunday. I introduced him to Scooby and we had several three-ways with him. I tried to create a friendship with him but everytime I invited him over he expected sex and started to get down right bitchy when he didn't get what he wanted. I tried to explain that my sex drive has been hit and miss since my fathers death, but this guy either didn't understand or didn't care. So buh bye.

The other guy I would get together with on Friday evenings. He quickly developed strong feelings for me and what did I do..... I invited him over to the house and Scooby and I had a three way with him also for the last two weekends. He emailed me yesterday confessing his feelings, telling me he hasn't been to work all this week and that he's been crying alot. I told him that it was probably best that we didn't play anymore but I hoped we could still be friends. He just told me tonight that the only way he can pick himself up is to quit the gay lifestyle....

I feel bad for the second guy and will do what I can to help him. This is why I prefer to have sex with strangers. Since all this, I'm not even sure I want to know the other persons name. No strings, blow and go is where its at for me this year.

decisions decisions

Well I did it again...... I've been looking at real estate down in NOLA online again. I found a property that is about a block from our friend the Crisco kid in a "not too bad" neighborhood. Its in our price range, has lots of space and even maybe a yard. And its walking distance to the Quarter.

Why do I do this to myself, getting my hopes up that is. First I'm sure its not in prestine condition so banks won't touch it. Second we are not even close to having our place ready to put on the market. I used to say the only thing that kept me in Michigan was my father, now that he's gone..... I've got a good job here and down there I would probably have to work alot harder, but I hate the winters here and really don't care for MI. I absolutely love it down there. I'm sure summers would be a bitch heat wise, but I think I'd rather deal with excessive heat then excessive cold.

I'm also scared of quitting my job, but I could take a leave of absence. I don't know...... I've recently thought that I've kind of wasted the last 22 yrs of my life here in MI and do I really want to spend the next 22yrs doing the same thing. Arrgh

I know I'm rambling

Not much new

Not much new here. Most of the week was cold with temps averaging around 30. It started warming up and raining last night which is a good thing since it will get rid of the rest of the snow. I got up this morning and it was already 50 degrees. YES!!!

Had lunch with my sister today and she told me that she got an offer on my dads house which is another good thing. Hopefully the guy will be able to get financing.

Today was the first day I spent time outside without a coat. I brought my coat to work since I'll probably need it by nightfall but its out in my car until I need it. Funny how the little things mean so much.... Winter and cold weather is just about over, thank God.

And as of yesterday I'm chlamydia free. I finished the rest of my antibiotics yesterday and to celebrate I sucked off Scooby.

Things are looking up

Well my lymph nodes are finally starting to shrink and become less painful. I think I'm also starting to get some energy back. YAY!

Earlier this week we had weather in the high 60's and most of the snow is now gone other than the snow plow piles in the parking lots. YAY!

I also quit seeing my therapist. Actually I missed my last appointment a couple of weeks ago and never called to reschedule. Most of my stress is gone, with "J" moving out things at home are now back to slow paced and boring and alot less drinking. Also since my dad is gone I don't have to worry about running into family members that feel the need to judge me and condemn me to hell for being a cock sucking butt fucking homosexual.

This year started out shitty, but things seem to be looking up. And spring is right around the corner.

Happy St. Pats day everyone! We are partying at the "Berg" tomorrow night and then the St. Pats parade is Sunday at 2pm. Gonna be a fun weekend.

OUCH! An open letter to my fuck/ suck buddies

Dear fuck/suck buddies,
I've been having swollen lymph nodes problems since last Friday and went to the Dr. Monday about it. I hate to have to tell you this but I found out today that I have chlamydia (aka the clap). Apparently 90% of people who have it show no signs of symptoms (like me). So I don't know how long I've had it, it could have been the cause of my pink eye last year. They told me I had to contact all my partners, sooo. Luckily it can be treated and cured with antibiotics. Again I'm sorry to have to tell you this, I feel horrible. :(
Mouse


Well this is my first STD folks, other than HIV that is. I just thank God that with antibiotics it will be cured in about 8-10 days. It could have been the cause of my headaches and my fatigue, so I'm curious about how I'll feel in two weeks. If you'd like more info. on this you can go to the link here.

The Dr. visit + some advice

I went to the Dr. Monday and yes we were right it is my Lymp nodes that are swollen. The Dr. said to just apply either hot or cold (I can't remember which) compress's to them and to keep an eye on them and let him know if it gets worse. He also said it was unlikely but tested me for gonorrhea. Great.... For those of you who have never had this test, they stick a large wooden Q-tip type thing in the end of your dick, which stings and burns. Fun Fun I was really surprised he didn't take a urine sample. I was thinking that my problem was possibly a bladder or kidney infection type thing, but what do I know.... Anyway still waiting for the test results.

I've recently decided that it isn't a good idea to try and be friends with fuck buddies. Either their a friend or a FB, but when you try and combine it is when it gets messy. I met this guy last fall online, he's poz also and we started having sex on Sunday mornings. Then I introduced him to Scooby and we had a three way. I also organized a four way with us and another guy a couple of times.

The day we got home from New Orleans we were dead tired from the drive. The guy called and I told him we were too tired but he insisted on coming over anyway, because he hadn't gotten off since we left. We did manage to have a three way that evening but Scooby was really tired and got kinda irritated. Our Sunday playdates kind of petered out cuz Scooby started getting up earlier and we would start working on the house. Now he wants to get together EVERY weekend.

I don't mind hanging out but I've been dealing with alot of shit this year with my fathers suicide plus I've been sick for several weeks and now with my swollen lymp node problem. Sorry but sex hasn't been a high priority on my list lately. He called this weekend and said in a pissy tone, "We're not having sex anymore so I'm just gonna stay home and get online and find someone." Which my response was, "I'm sorry I've been sick but thats cool". It felt as if he was trying to give me a guilt trip and that pissed me off. Luckily I'm getting better, but this last weekend it was painful to even walk so his guilt trip didn't work.

With fuck buddies, you call them when your horny and its your basic blow and go. I shouldn't have to explain to someone (who is not my boyfriend) why I'm not in the mood and if I have too they should understand. He asked how it went at the Dr. and I was blunt about it and told him I got tested for gonorrhea and was waiting for the results, that should cool his jets a bit....

Anyway end of rant, thanks for listening...

No money, more work and a second set of testicles

I figured by this time today that I'd have a pocket full of money, but its not the case. First my paycheck didn't show up today which included the 100% refund on 2006 health insurance. Then one of my house cleaning jobs wanted me to come in and clean their China and curio cabinets, and I didn't get paid for that either. Then I got to work and my millage reibursement didn't get processed either. FUCK!!!! Oh well guess I won't be spending much money this weekend.

Then after I got to work my boss called me to let me know that we are understaffed again and I have to clean that big fucking ass building on campus again tonight. Again FUCK!!!!
To top it all off I've been having pains in my groin lately also and today when I was taking a shower I discovered I have two golf ball size lumps on either side of my cock which totally fucking freaked me out. I had Scooby check them out and he told me my lymp nodes are swollen. So I feel alittle bit better about that. They still are making it hard to get around though. God just get me through tonight. I think I'm gonna have to tell my boss about my HIV status soon. Maybe then I won't have to do all this extra work because its fucking killing me.

Hope everyone has a good weekend. Mine starts at 11pm tonight. YAY!

Tired as shit

Good lord has this been a busy week.....

First the chainsaw man:

Scooby has noticed for the last couple of years during the summer this hot furry, long bearded guy ride past the house on a bicycle. The kind of interesting and scary part is that he always has a chainsaw in the milk crate that is strapped to the back of his bike. Well a week or so ago I was leaving for work and who is riding past but the chainsaw man minus the chainsaw this time. I find out that he does tree trimming/ removal work and is in need of work. He's straight but gay friendly and a big fucking dick tease but nice all the same.

I hired him to cut down several small trees and trim up several large trees in my back yard. So yesterday as he cut and trimmed the trees I stacked the logs and brush. We worked from 10:30am till 3pm and I was fucking tired by the time we got done. I had just enough time before work to run to McDonalds and feed us.

Then I went to work only to find out that we were majorly understaffed so I ended up having to do three times the amount of work that night then normal. By the time I was done I was totally spent. Then this morning Scooby woke me up early wanting sex. I was still tired and irritated by being work up so early, so I hate fucked him hard, which is just what he likes. Then early this afternoon I had to go help a friend pick up a washing machine and take it to his house. Luckily I was able to take a nap before work today so I'm starting to feel normal again.

In other local news:

There is two High Schools in the town that I'm from. When the original one (the one I went to) got too crowded they built another on the the rich side of town. This high school has a swimming pool and carpeted classrooms ect. to cater to the prodominately posh student body. Yesterday a male student from a nearby small town walked in with a backpack and asked to see his ex girlfriend. She wasn't there so they asked him to leave. He went out to the parking lot and waited for her. She showed up around 11am with her mother and he shot her four times in the parking lot then shot himself. He died and the girl is in critical but stable condition.

It kind of irks me that they would have carpeted classrooms and a swimming pool but no metal detectors. Priorities???? If they would of had them they would of went off when he first entered the school which might have diffused the incident. I bet they'll probably be getting them now.

Reversing the downward spiral

For the last seven months our drinking at home has gotten bad, bordering on out of control. I don't blame our 25 yo. room mate "J", but I think that the three of us living together makes for a destructive combination. Coming home from a long day at work and finding them drunk several days out of the week was wearing on me. I've been having outbursts of anger and have finally realized that I need a stable home environment. And when my home environment is not stable.... neither am I.

Scooby and I have been discussing asking "J" to leave for the last month. Things finally came to a head Saturday morning when "J" and I had a door slamming contest in which I won. He then announced that he couldn't live here anymore and moved out that day. It feels as if a weight has been lifted off of me.

Sunday we had a nice quiet day. No techno blaring from upstairs, no constant stream of men coming and going, and we actually had a liquor free day. We're getting our old boring life back and it feels fucking great.

Gay Puppet on Poppers

OMG! This is hilarious!


Happy Fat Tuesday everyone!

Happy "Hallmark" Day

Scooby and I have been together almost 10 yrs. so needless to say we don't celebrate Valentines Day, Christmas or even birthdays for that matter anymore. Yes we wish each other a Happy (whatever holiday ect.) , but we don't buy any gifts for each other. Scooby's birthday was a couple of weeks ago and I did take the day off at his request and we sat around and got shit faced drunk.

Actually I've been drinking too much lately. A few weeks ago I came home from work on a Friday night and Scooby was already passed out drunk on the couch. So I took off and went to a friend house and started drinking, then came home and continued drinking and got on the computer. Granted I was only drinking beer, that is until "J" out room mate came home with a bottle of whisky. We started doing shots and I ended up blacking out and passing out. Scooby found "J" and I at 7am Saturday morning curled up under a blanket in the middle of the kitchen floor.

The night of Scoobys birthday wasn't any diffferent. "J" found us passed out naked on the couch, me laying on my back and Scooby curled up like a cat laying on my chest. I've recently discovered that on occasion Scooby with ride my cock after I pass out or fall asleep. So I'm under the impression that "J" witnessed the aftermath of one of those sessions.

I sometimes threaten Scooby and "J" that I'm going to get help, but in all honesty drinking is the only fun thing in my life right now. It only happens a couple times a month on either Friday or Saturday so I don't feel its a problem yet.

Confused slut

This weekend I added two new guys to my yahoo IM. One, a local guy in his early twenties who lives near where I work. The very horny young man was looking to get serviced and considering the stuff going on with me right now, I'm finding the best distraction is to suck on a hard cock. We planned to hook up sometime this week.

The second guy is a reader of my blog from, if I remember right, New York.

Anyway....I got an IM from my blog reader guy and thought it was the local horny guy. I IM'd him back saying if he was up to it that I'd suck him off tonight..... Oops sorry.

I'm such a confused slut....

Rant and other shit

Well I was suppose to have an interview at the local State University this morning, but I cancelled it. The main reason for changing jobs was because they had domestic partner benefits. Well no more thanks to Michigan Court of Appeals. I'm too old to start over and loose all my vacation ect. so I guess I'm here to stay unless we move out of the bigoted state of Michigan. I swear to God, that the AFA and the people who support it are nothing but modern day Nazi's, the only difference is they have a more subtle way of exterminating people.


I was hoping to go to the support group for Survivors of Suicide, but the meetings in the area conflict with my job. If the night group was in Midland instead of Saginaw I could go since they're near work. The one in Midland is at 11am, and I refuse to drive to Midland twice in one day, or hang out till I go to work. So I guess the monthly therapist meeting will have to do.

My dads material things are being divided up. He left his riding lawn mower to my sister and her husband, his car to my other sister, the other lawn equipment goes to my brother and I get his craftmatic bed...... the bed he shot himself on. Nice. But my sister just found out that the house insurance will pay to have the mattress replaced. I darkly joked, "He knew that the bed was going to me, why couldn't he have shot himself on the other twin bed in his bedroom." I told my siblings that I wanted the gun also, and they agreed. I wouldn't if it wasn't a family heirloom. But it was my mom's 22 rifle when she was young. So now I just have to wait for the police to release it, I guess it takes a month for that to happen. "J" our room mate said his father offered to teach me to clean it and that I can go shoot it out on their property. I also found an indoor shooting range right down the street.

So thats whats going on with me. I'm doing better. We are all doing better. It had been several days since I got weepy, but I went to the Survivors of Suicide online site and the memorial page made me have a relapse. But crying is a good thing, it helps.

Some what back

I'm some what back. Thank you all so very much for your kind words, its meant alot in this difficult time. This last week and a half has been an emotional roller coaster. My moments of crying are starting to subside a bit. My siblings and I spent last Thursday and Friday cleaning out my dads house. Thurday night sitting in my living room with 1/4 of my parents belongings lying on the floor, thats when it started to hit me, he's gone, there both gone. We're all trying not to blame ourselves, because its not going to do us any good.

I didn't cry this much when my mom died 11 yrs ago, but she was sick and bed ridden for her last couple of months. We had time to get used to the fact that she was going. No one expected my dad to end his life. My brother- inlaw, the one who found my dad isn't doing well. We're all just kind of fucked up right now. I know this has made me stronger. I have contemplated the act myself from time to time......now......never. I've been on the other end of it and would never put anyone through this grief.

We're going to wait till summer to clean out the garage. Then once the house/land gets out of probate it will go up for sale. I spent every Tuesday with my dad, I'm going to be lost tomorrow. I've been distracting myself with cock, mostly Scooby's. Friday the hot redhead is going to pound a load down my throat. And I might be rendezvous'ing next week with a hot furry poz guy and having hot meaningless mansex in a cheap motel, so things are ok.

My Union sent a beautiful floral arrangement. I'm kind of dissapointed with my job. Yes my boss showed up to the memorial service and his boss sent me a card, but the people I clean for in my main building, the people I see everyday, didn't do anything, not even a card. One lady said she was sorry to hear the news the rest acted like nothing happened. My co-workers didn't do anything either. A card would have been enough. I've been here for 17 years, I feel like I deserve at least a card.

But then when my mom died and I was still working on campus the people in that building all signed a card for me. Then when I got back from berevement leave, one of the ladies asked if I had been on vacation......and she had signed the card.

Anyway, thank you all again for the kind thoughts and wishes. I will be ok, like that saying goes, "that what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger".


Update: I did end up recieving a card from my coworkers and one from one of the three dept. that I clean for.

break

I've been debating whether to post this or not, but I need to take a break for a week or two maybe a month.

My father was a very strong and adamant person. After living through his own mothers stroke and nursing home confinement he vowed that he never wanted to get to the point that he had to go to a nursing home and didn't want to be a burden on us kids.

Yesterday morning he woke with a bad headache and the shakes and all we can guess is that he thought he was having a stroke and he ended up shooting and killing himself in his home. He was 87. He was a very happy person who loved his family and this has been a total shock for all of us. It was a very long day which included me and my nephew and Scooby yesterday evening cleaning up the scene once the police cleared it and confirmed it was a suicide.

Needless to say I'm a mess right now.....but I will be back.

I don't understand why you did it, but I love you dad and will miss you so very much.

Hyped

I decided to go online and check out the local state University's website and I'll be god damned if they have two full time openings for custodians and one part time call in position. I immediately applied. One of my friends mother works as a custodian there and said I could use her as a reference. YES! I'm sure that the full time positions will go to others that are already in the part time call in pool, but hey maybe I can at least get my foot in the door. This State University also acknowledges same sex unions in there health insurance. double YES!!

I asked my boss today if I could get a copy of my last evaluation. He said I could....in a kind of sad tone. He knows the shit thats going on with the big wig Nazi boss, so I'm sure he knows the reason I want my evaluation. With 16 yrs experience of University cleaning and a great evaluation backing me up, I'd say I have a good chance of getting the fuck outta here.

I'm so fucking hyped.....

Work rant

Well I had planned to tell another vacation story about my sexual exploits but work is starting to fuck with us again and our Nazi ruler is on the rampage.

I was told before Christmas break that we could no longer borrow our cleaning equipment to take home and use. At first I thought, "Oh well, no biggy". That is until I just found out today that the new rule is just for our department. Any other University employee can borrow "OUR" equipment and take it home and clean their carpets/ floors and furniture, but not us. Now I'm thinking WTF.

The Nazi is also threatening to take away our paid Holiday between Christmas and New Years.

It all started with our fucked up Union and our Union steward. In the past we have had shift differentials, meaning first shift gets base pay and second shift gets like 35 cents more and third shift gets like 1.00 more an hour than base pay. If you work a different shift you get paid the differential for that shift. Our stupid ass Union decided they wanted to change that and that if you normally work say second or third shift you would get that pay when ever you worked and the people who work first shift would get base pay even if they worked second or third.

It sounds totally fucked up to me. Basically first shifters get fucked and thats not fair. But anyway like I said this was the Unions idea. I work off campus so was not informed of any of this till it took effect. Apparently coworkers were asked and most agreed to the changes. Dumb fuckers. When our Union people went in to sign it one guy decided against it. This infuriated the University and they whined that they have gone through too much to just forget about it. So it became effective with out our Union reps fully agreeing. Then the guy that disagreed had to work OT and got screwed out of money since he works first shift. He filed a greivance, yadda yadda yadda.

So the fight ensued and now 0ne by one the Nazi is taking away any benefits he can that is not in our contract. This job wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the Nazi fucking asshole. I wish I could afford to quit. I do plan on getting together a resume and start looking for another job asap. Some place that doesn't discriminate against gays and doesn't have a mentally abusive person in charge. Is there such a place?

Today

I'm slightly hung over today, which normally puts me in bottom mode. Today is no exception. Thanks to "Craigslist" we've been corresponding for the past week with a ex marine with a extremely high sex drive. Apparently he can fuck all day/night and cum multiple times. Tells us he will give us as many loads as we are willing to take. He's been sending hot self pics all week, some of them hot action scenes. He's from here but has been out of town and is getting back today........ Did I mention his arms are covered in tattoo's that connect across his chest.

Details to follow.

Funk

Thanks for the well wishes guys. I am feeling a bit better. Besides the cold, I've just been in a fucking rotten mood for the last week. My therapist irritated me last week. She, like alot of people have no fucking clue about the side effects of HIV meds and how they affect some people. We talked about Scooby and how he's not working and how it puts alot of pressure on me, being the only income, working full time (manual labor) plus 4 house cleaning jobs. She thinks that I should give him an ultimatum that he get a job or I won't take him to New Orleans anymore. She just don't get that the meds make him fucking sicker than a dog constantly throwing up in the mornings. The meds give him vertigo also and he can't ride in a car without getting close to barfing. I honestly don't know how he is going to handle the drive down to NOLA in a couple of weeks. I'm really considering stopping therapy, I don't see where its doing me any good.

Then I go to my dads and he starts showing me pics of my neices last visit. These are the ones that said they would NEVER except me as a homo and that I'm going to Hell. I looked at the pics uninterestedly thinking to myself I don't care to look at pics of these ignorant bitches. My sister was in one pic and I thought she is really looking old. I haven't seen or talked to her in almost a year. Surprisingly I did get a Christmas card from her the other day and decided to send one to her also, I always sign them "Love Mike and Scooby". Ha

Work has completely refused to add Scooby to my health insurance. Which gives me one more reason to hate my full time job. Fucking bigots....

I cut my hair and trimmed my beard the other day, hoping it would put me in a better mood. It kind of helped, feel a bit sexy again. In the beginning of the week I just wanted to stop my meds and let this disease take its course, but my sadomasochistic inner child refuses to let me. Ha

We've decided to leave Christmas day for New Orleans. Gonna stay with our friend the Crisco kid until that Friday when our timeshare week starts. Should be fun.

Sick

UGH! I've been battling a sinus infection for 3 weeks now and I believe its now turned into a full fledged cold. When I was at the Dr. last week I mentioned my sinus infection and all he had to say was, "Yeah you and everybody else". Nice.... So I'm a bucket of fucking snot and I feel like shit. Not sure if I'll be posting much this week.

Spineless creatures

It's the end of the year and time to renew our health coverage for 2007 at the learning institution that I work for. Enclosed in the email our director of healthcare noted that if we had any questions to email her.

So I did.....

Hi (name of healthcare director),
It has come to my attention that many of the BIG Universities in Michigan are now acknowledging same sex domestic partners and allowing them to be included in healthcare packages. I was wondering if we were doing this also, if so I'd like to add my partner of 9 yrs. to my health insurance.

Thank you, Mike (last name here)

First week.....no response
Second week......no reponse.... so I sent it again
This is the third week and I still haven't heard anything

I highly doubt that they do include same sex domestic partners considering this institution was founded on Christian morals and beliefs, but for God sake get a fucking backbone and just tell me no.

Update: Well I called and left a voice mail and got an email back Thursday confirming that NO the education establishment that I work for doesn't acknowledge domestic partners and they can not be included in our health insurance. At least I got it in writing or email, God forbid I have to file a wrongful death suit against them in the future.

I've been working like a dog at work. I spent last week scrubbing tile floors and now this week waxing them. Hope to update in the next day or two once things start slowing down a bit. Had a good Thanksgiving with the family. The weekend was chock full of sex starting with a 4- way on Saturday and a 3-way on Sunday. Details to follow.

Hope everyone had a great Holiday!

Happy Thanksgiving

Things I'm thankful for: Scooby, friends & family, our house, my job(s), and this four day weekend, cuz I've worked like a dog the last two days.

A secret: I love the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade

DudeTube

OMG! I'm obsessed with the webcam clips at DudeTube. Free gay porn, it doesn't get much better then that. Granted there isn't many hairy guys but beggars can't be choosers.

Congrats Berlin, Germany you were my 25,000 visitor! Sorry that you only visited for less then a second.

I guess I need to start experimenting with fisting more to get Germanys attention.

Weekend recap

I meant to post sooner but got preoccupied. My vertigo is subsiding a bit, still don't feel completely up to par but I'm going to ignore it like everything else. I got to go to the Dr. in the next few weeks anyway, I'll mention it then.

Anyway Friday went pretty smoothly with working all day. Had just enough time in between jobs to grab a bite to eat in McD's drive thru and head to the car wash to wash off all the accumulating bird shit. Friday night turned out interesting, called a our friend Thurston that I haven't seen in a while. Asked him if he had time for friends or was he too busy with his next victim/ fuck buddy. (I tried calling him last week but he was busy with someone in his sling in the basement.) He was free so Scooby and I headed over.

We planned to just visit but one thing lead to another.... An hour later the jazz and blues was playing over the stereo and I was strapped in the sling with Scooby and Thurton fucking me from both ends. Scooby was taking control of my ass while Thurston fed me his 9in. cock. Then Scooby and I flipped and we put him in the sling and Thurston and I took turns filling his hungry holes. We ended up fucking around till 4:30 in the fucking morning. Since it was getting early we headed home and Scooby then fucked me till 5am and then we crashed. I'm still recouperating from Friday night.

Saturday and Sunday was spent cleaning the computer room/office. I can finally see the top of my desk. We didn't do too much else. Other than Sunday I had my usual trip to the other side of town to play with furry poz guy. After we got done, I then headed to the other furry bear down the street to play with him. Then it was off to the fruit market for the weekly salad/veggie stuff and then home. I finally found whole cranberries to make the cranberry relish for Thanksgiving which I did up later that day. I got this recipe from one of the famous chicken places in a near by town. It is fantastic, so I thought I'd share:

Cranberry Relish

1 lb. Northern Spy Apples
1 lb. Dark Red Cranberries
2 cups sugar
2 peel-on Whole Navel Oranges

Freeze Cranberries solid. Wash and core apples-leaving the skin intact. In a food processor, add half of frozen cranberries and half apples and turn to chop speed so that pieces are a quarter inch square. Chop the entire pound of apples and cranberries and place in large mixing bowl and mix with sugar. Then chop the peel-on whole oranges to the same consistency and mix with apples/cranberries/sugar. Let stand one hour before serving/freezing for later use.

I like it better if its been frozen. Enjoy

Vertigo???

Yesterday Scooby and I was driving downtown to go out for lunch and I was stopped at a stoplight. I sat there watching the cars whizzing past in front of me and things started to get blurry and I started to get nauseous. I haven't felt well since, my heads been floating in a semi altered state. I don't feel all that bad, but I don't feel all that well either.
I've also been really tired and sleeping a lot this week. Tomorrow I start my new cleaning job which means I'll be working from noon till almost 3pm then I work my FT job from 3pm till 11pm. God just get me through tomorrow.

Jesus H Christ just let me fuckin VOTE

Ok I got up early this morning and headed to Wenona School wear the voting booth is....normally. The place was deserted. Wenona school is no longer there and neither are the voting booths. FUCK
So I head to my therapist appt. in Saginaw at 9am. Do that. Head to Midland to my Dads, clean his house and have lunch. I call Scooby and he recieved a new voter registration card with the new address on it. So I head back to Bay City and YES I found the new voting place at Pines Towers senior complex and voted.

So far Jennifer Granholm our current Democratic Governor is ahead. YEA! She's running against Dick DeVos the heir to AMWAY empire. I'm sorry but I don't think people who own chemical companies should be allowed to run for office. The are so not environmentally friendly. Another thing we need to have restrictions on one sign per canidate per property. There are people here that have like 50-100 fucking DeVos signs on their property. Its a fucking sickening eyesore. If this happens next election, I think I might report them for blight. "evil laugh"

The Brooklyn Chowder Surfer

Ben Sargent is my new crush.... He was on Martha this morning making chowder. Man I'd like to taste his.... Wish I could find a pic of him to post, want to know more click the title link to his site.

Not much new going on. Got Scooby's van running, the brakes fixed, ect. Then called the guy that was wanted to buy it. He drives 2 hours to get here and the fucking thing won't fucking start. Scooby just had it running 2 hours before. FUCK FUCK FUCK Someone out/up there hates us, I'm convinced.

Yesterday I was awake by 8:30am.
1. Got up and fed the cats
2. did two loads of laundry
3. washed the kitchen and dining room floor on my hands and knees (it was filthy from the party)
4. ran to the south side of town and played with my furry poz fuck/suck buddy
5. came home and raked up 5 bags of leaves
6. then went to work

Shit thats enought to make my head spin...

Jello shots are not my friend

OMG! Someone brought jello shots to our party and that was all she wrote for me... The actual party is very fuzzy, but I'm told that I turned into a pumpkin by midnight. Didn't have as many people but most came in costume and everyone had a great time. Unfortunately donations this time were meager so it looks like I'll be probably working some overtime in order to pay our liquor bill. We've got tons of food and alcohol left and all I want to do is quit drinking, but not until all the alcohol has been consumed out of the house. LOL

I came too around 3am just in time to help clean up. Went to bed and found a bearded sexy man naked and sleeping. Note: the guys that were suppose to come and spend the night from ManHunt/tease never showed. Surprise....not. Anyway back to the guy in our bed. Scooby came to bed also, the guy woke up all frisky so Scooby started fucking him and I commandeered his mouth. His mouth felt fantastic and my cock swelled to mass proportions in response. We fucked that guy silly and he loved every inch of man meat that we plowed his holes with. What a fun little bottom he was.

It also looks like I've got another house cleaning job starting next week. The extra cash will be nice. The guy is also gonna pay me to help him clean out and sort his basement. We finally had a day with out rain today so I badgered Scooby into finishing up his brakes on his van so we can sell it and sure enough while we were out there bleeding the brakes a couple of people stopping to check it out. I will be so fucking happy if we can get that van sold....

This week...

Spent the week finishing up getting ready for our party and cleaning up from last nights night of drunken dabuachery. The three of us got shit faced drunk last night and Scooby wiped out the bathroom upstairs breaking the glass containers we used to keep cotton balls and Q-tips in. We are all banged and bruised up. One of us fell off the front porch and creamed one of my small lilac bushes. You can still see the imprint of whoevers body in the iris's along the porch. None of us can remember who it was that fell off the porch, but we're all in sad shape so maybe we took turns. LOL

I also found a half eaten apple laying on the floor of the foyer.

A confession and the Halloween party

Ok I'm finally admitting it....I love Project Runway. And yes, I've watched all three seasons. I have to admit though that I was surprised that Jeffery won. His final stuff really didn't make me go wow. Laura's was her predictable High New York Glam. And Michael's was cool, but didn't wow me either. Actually it was Uli's that impressed me the most, she had finally gotten away from those Florida style prints. But anyway congrats Jeffery. I loved it when Uli told Laura, "You won, you made Jeffery cry".

I liked Laura other than she's a baby factory. 5 kids and a 6th on the way, I'm sorry but this irritates me. I grew up in a farming community that is quickly being eaten up by urban sprawl and it makes me sad. I really feel that if we continue populating like we have that in a couple more centuries the only country side our future will know is what they read in story books. Sorry if I offend anyone but thats how I feel. My own sister has 6 kids. Her one son married a woman with two little kids, he then knocked her up two more times and now they have 4 kids under the age of 5. Stop already....

Next subject,

Our Halloween party is next weekend and I still haven't decided what the fuck I'm going as. Its down to Nosferatu(vampire) or Pan (greek mythology).
I've done the vampire thing....alot, but not Nosferatu style. I find him to be the scariest looking vampire of all time, the original movie not the remake. I found a coat like his and bought some pointed ears today. The thing is I'm gonna have to practically shave my head and face. I say practically cuz I'm gonna try to just use the clippers with no setting on my head and #1 on my face. That should cut it down close enough I think. Its been forever since I've seen my face.

Pan is an old costume also. I made fur pants years ago and luckily I can still fit in them. The only thing is being shirtless, cuz its been down right chilly lately. Plus I really don't want to wear an itchy wig, which I'd have to do to hide my strap on horns.

So I think its gonna be Nosferatu, gonna have to take some before and after pics of my face once its naked.

It also looks like we're gonna have a poz sex party after the Halloween party. Got 2 poz guys coming from out of town for the party and their planning on staying the night and have peaked an interest at playing. Then there is the new furry fuck buddy guy from across town. I'm beginning to wonder how many guys we can fit in our bed.....Should be interesting.

Joke of the day

Larry and Bob wanted to go out drinking, but they only had $2.00 between them. Larry said, "Hang on, I have an idea." He went next door to the butcher's shop and spent the $2.00 on one large sausage. Bob said, "Are you crazy? Now we don't have any money left at all!" Larry replied, "Don't worry - just follow me."

They went into the pub where Larry immediately ordered two double shots of Jack Daniels. Bob said, "Now you've lost it! Do you know how much trouble we will be in? We haven't got any money to pay for this!" Larry replied, with a smile,"Don't worry, I have a plan. Cheers!" They downed their drinks. Larry said "OK! I'll stick the sausage through my zipper and you get on your knees and put it in your mouth."
Said and done, the barman noticed them, went berserk, and threw them out. They continued this, bar after bar, getting more and more drunk, all for free.

At the tenth bar, Bob said, "Larry - I don't think I can do this anymore. My mouth is sore! and my knees are killing me!" Larry said, "How do you think I feel? I lost the sausage at the third bar!"

Putting my foot down and other shit

Well after my last post I went home and told Scooby that he needed to start working on the house at least 25 hours a week or pay me 25 bucks a week to live there. That I'm not going to bust my ass while he sits around and plays on the computer. I also told him that if things didn't change that that we wouldn't last more than a few more years. He agreed.

Home Depot has started having him come in more recently also, which helps. Granted its only 4 hours a week, but three weeks in a row so far. The cute Italian guy that I've mentioned within the last week or so, spent Sunday working on Scoobys brakes on his van. He likes us alot and we've let him crash on our couch several nights, so for lunch and 20 bucks he did the brakes on the van. Hopefully we can sell the dam thing soon.

Also found out that Fiero's hold their value and are in demand on Ebay so we will probably try to sell online.

Its been raining alot lately, which is better than snow, but I wish we had a day or two of dry weather to get some outside shit done.

Had a great day yesterday spending time with my old friend "D" and her husband. We drove around so she could show him where she grew up and went to school. Then we headed to Frankenmuth to Bronners, which is the biggest Christmas store on the planet. I've been told that they supply Hollywood with all the props for most of the Christmas movies. Then we went to Zehnders for chicken dinners. They are a homestlye restraunt that serves you like it was thanksgiving. But man are they fucking expensive. Granted its all you can eat, but fucking 17.50 per person not including drinks. OUCH! Luckily we were able to take the left overs home with us, so I'll be eating chicken for a few days.

Back to work today. Yahoo!

Snoooooooow

We got our first snow today and its not even fucking Halloween yet. I'm so not ready for winter. I made the mistake and blinked and totally missed the fall colors. Been getting the house ready for our Halloween party on the 28th. Not much decorating left other than cobwebs. I want to get most everything done before Monday cuz my best girlfriend "D" and her new husband are coming for a visit from San Fransisco. They'll be in the state for her sisters wedding and will be driving up for the day to visit us.

I think my migrain has finally left about an hour or so ago. Today it had moved back to the side of my head near my ear. It wasn't a constant pain or throbbing. It was more like a sporatic stab in the brain with an ice pick type of pain. Anyway glad its gone, three days was enough.

Starting to get a little worried about our money situation. Don't have much left in the bank and when thats gone we're gonna be fucked. I guess I could find a part time job to add to my fulltime one and the three houses I clean. I stress this to Scooby but it goes in one ear and out the other. His solution is for me to remortgage the house again. Sometimes I feel that he would rather have me work myself to death than go out and get a job himself. We're trying to sell his van and fiero now that I bought the Aztek and am giving him my Grand Prix. Of course his van now broke down. Got it running but now it has no brakes so more charges to get that fixed.

Anyway thats how things are going here.

Brain pain, ManTease, and the Therapist

Don't feel much like blogging. Have had one of my migrains for the last couple of days. Yesterday it was located behing my ear and the top of my head was painful to the touch. Today it has relocated to my forehead.

Had two dates lined up today with a two guys from ManHunt, but they both stood me up. Beginning to think they should rename that site ManTease.

Had my first appointment with my therapist. It was good and I left feeling good dispite the migrain. Because of my love of New Orleans, Katrina sent me into a type of post tramatic stress. Also was told that I don't need to appoligize for the letter I wrote to my neices pointing out all their flaws and sins after they condemned me to hell for being a homo. I wanted to appoligize just to try and patch things up with the family, but if they can't deal then its their problem not mine. Also my eldest neice has alot of power or uses the bible to hold power over the family. Going back in a couple of weeks.

Well it looks like my popularity at Manhunt has run it course. It was a good week and a half. LOL Got hit up by this guy below that wanted me to travel half way across the state to blow him and his bf. They supposably go right past my city on the weekends going up north so I recommened that we meet at the local bookstore and this is the response I got back.

from: NMIKEYHL
Subject: Re: sucking u guys off
Date: Thu Oct 05, 2006 07:29 PM

we are not sick fucks like yourself thst do it in rest areas or bookstores,,
thats how u got aids

My response back: "Dude you hit me up first, so whatever. FYI I wasn't a slut until I became hiv so you can keep your half baked accusations to yourself."

The majority of guys I've run across at this site so far are flakes, game players, then theres guys like NMIKEYHL who are suffering from multiple personality disorders. I now remember why I left this site several years ago.

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The other day I was visiting one of my long time friends and we were chatting.

Friend: remember when we were young, dumb, and full of cum.
Me: Yeah (dreamily)
Friend: And now we're just dumb.
both of us: Hardy loud laughter.
Me:Thats so true(in between laughing fits)

kitties

Kitty update:
Our kitties came home last Thursday from their surgury. At first we thought we were going to have to take Kiddo back in cuz he had this short red spagetti looking thing sticking out of his neutered area. I know, to much information, but luckily it fell off, so no more surgury. Clyde on the other hand hasn't snapped back. His appetite is nil and he has a horrible weezy hacky cough. We called earlier and the vet said it was from the tube they had down his throat and that it would go away. Well it had been a week and Kiddo was completely recovered and Clyde was still just laying around not doing much. So today I called again and they put him on an antibiotic and he's finally starting to bounce back.

Random shit

Well I called the vet at 1pm today as instructed, all expecting them to say come on over and pick em up. But no. I was told that they are doing good and getting around, but to call back tomorrow morning. I miss the little shits. I hope their not totally pissed at me for having them fixed and declawed. Puddy our older cat was only there overnight when he had his surgury, but he's a large cat also, so maybe they heal faster.

In other news I fucking worked my ass off today before work. First I rounded up all the trash (tomorrow's trash day), cleaned all the litter boxes, did 3 loads of laundry, and brought in the rest of my plants from outside for the season. I also pulled a table out of the Michigan basement and cleaned it up and put it in the attic to use for a base for my stain glass work area.

(For those of you who don't know what a Michigan basement is, its normally a small dirt floor room under the house.) Ours is just that, which houses the furnace, hot water heater and all my canning jars along with plumbing and heating parts and pieces that need to be installed when ever we get around to in. Oh and its only accessable from a trap door in the floor of the dining room, which is a total bitch. After I moved the table out I then put in one of those plastic shelfs to store my canning jars which had been sitting under and on top of the table.

Then I went to work. Oh wait a minute I made lunch for Scooby first then I went to work. And that was my day so far. My pink eye seems to be getting better, but I had to cancel a date with a hot french man because of it. FUCK FUCK FUCK, I was so looking forward to that rondevous.

Kitty update and other shit

Well Scooby called the Vet and both Kiddo and Clyde are doing fine. They told us to call tommorrow around 1pm to see about picking them back up. This sounds good since this morning they told us to probably call around 4 or 5pm. It will be nice to not have my feet clawed in the middle of the night anymore. I believe it was Clyde that would jump up on the end of the bed and get my feet in the process. It happened enough that I started sleeping in the fetal position out of fear.

In other news: I woke up this morning with my right eye crusted shut. So I would guess this means that I have Pink Eye. Fucking great. Never had it before, but Scooby just had it last month so I started taking the Similasan that we bought for him. It started with one of our friends coming over with it and giving it to Scooby. I guess I just don't understand some people, its like hello we already have problems with our immune system. Thanks for throwing a wrench in that.

Its funny how people are either considerate or not. We do have friends and neighbors that won't come over if their sick or will warn us is we are planning on visiting them. Our next door neighbor needed to come over for something recently and his kid was violently ill that morning and he pulled his shirt up over his mouth and nose not to contaminate us. I thought that was very considerate but not really needed and we told him he didn't have to cover up. I did pop an Airborne and that usually does the trick.

Anyway thats it, the kitties are doing good and I got fuckin pink eye....

nothing new

I have absolutely nothing new or interesting to say. Fall is here and so is the rain. Went to the flea market this weekend and actually bought a few pieces of crap. Saturday I helped Scooby and J drink a bottle of whisky then I drank a bottle of wine, then I preceded to throw up. Funny I felt fine the next day. Other then that its been sleep, eat, work. Tomorrow I drop Kiddo and Clyde off at the vet so they can be neutered. Poor guys....

Thats all

Web cam freaks

Scooby really likes to view peoples personal webcams, but as of late he's been seeing some really weird shit.

A little while ago he started viewing this one guys cam. The guy was naked and holding on to his hard cock. But then he started to stroke it. As his hand went down the shaft something weird would happen to the head of his cock. With a closer examination it was decided that the guy used to have a prince albert but it was apparently ripped out. When his hand would go down to the base, the head of his cock would pop open and then clap back together when he stroked up.

Last weekend I was watching tv and Scooby was sitting in a chair next to me watching a guy's cam. The man was dildo'ing the hell out of his ass, which was quite entertaining. Then I heard Scooby go "Ewwww" and I looked over to see the guy on cam expell the healthiest shit I've seen in a long time. It looked like it took place in the guys livingroom...I hope he at least layed something down over his carpet when he started.....

The Birthday update

First I'd like to say a big THANK YOU to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday! Not much to report I'm afraid.

This year my sister and dad came over the day before with the cake. Scooby didn't even have money to buy me a card. "J" our roomate gave me a Prosac, so I droned on the couch most of the day. I asked Scooby to make me breakfast, I figured he could at least do that since he couldn't afford to take me out to eat....I ended up cleaning up the mess afterword. "J" did make an awesome venison dinner that evening. The highlight was when the neighbor lady and her bf came over to get online to buy a dildo, I was laying on the couch and with no place else to sit "J" came over and snuggled next to me under a blanket. Did I mention that "J" is 25, slim and furry and that he was shirtless. That made my day! The neighbor guy returned later with a 6 pack of beer for me. That was about it, I went out and bought a bottle of whisky which we all drank. Scooby's mom sent me 25 bucks but I ended up giving 20 of it back to Scooby so he could put gas in his car.

Oh and I almost forgot to mention that last Friday I bought myself a 2001 Aztek. Call it a pre birthday present to myself. I've wanted one for awhile now and my friend Thurston got me a great deal on it. YEA! So all in all it wasn't to bad of a birthday as birthdays go.

Happy Birthday to me

UGH! Well I turned fuckin 40 today. Good bye dirty thirties it was hella fun ride. I'll miss ya. mwah

Aids Walk Michigan

Hey everyone, I'm walking in Aids Walk Michigan again this year. If you'd like to sponsor me you can make donations here. You will need my first and last name so contact me at baycitybearcub@yahoo.com and I'll give it to you.

Thanks Mike

I'm back.....

Just a short note for right now until my brain, kidneys and liver are finished detoxing. Had a good time, wasn't as eventfull as expected, but I do have a couple of nice nasty stories to tell. Until then, here is a "Best New Orleans story" from our friend Wendy who works at Aunt Tiki's on Decatur.

These three old ladies were visting NOLA and there hotel room (little did the know) over looked a gay establishment. The first morning they went to the front desk and said: We were looking out our window last night and saw what looked like a bunch of men in a conga line.......then we realized they were all naked....

The hotel rep immediately started appoligizing and said they would move them to another room asap. Oh no, we don't what to switch rooms, said the old ladies, We were just wondering when the show starts.

Naked rain dance and other shit

Saturday afternoon it downpoured to the point I grabbed a towel took off all my clothes and went out in the back yard and danced and stood around in the rain. It felt wonderful. It soaked and matted my fur to my body. I've always thought that wet fur is sexy. Dancing and standing around naked in the rain turns me on. I reached my arms up and let the water run down them matting my pit hair.

Sugar Daddy came up and we celebrated my birthday early. He brought me a couple of t-shirts that say, "Erection Inspector" and "I may not be Mr. Right, But I'll fuck you till he shows up". He also gave me a leather jock that has buckles on the hips. Very hot and sexy, I'll have to take a pic and post once I get back from Decadence.

We're about packed and ready to go. I can't believe we'll be there on Wednesday. I'm really gonna miss the kitties this will be the first time leaving them. Oh and I'm starting to get a god dammed cold sore. Fucking great! But I've been O.D.ing on L-Lysine so it should be gone within a couple of days before it even breaks the surface. That fucking shit rocks!

I finally broke down and joined the new Millenium.....I bought a cell phone. GASP! I plan on just using it for emergency purposes mainly. We'll see how that goes. But we really needed one since we're staying with friends down in NOLA who don't have a land line and well it is Hurricane season.

Don't know if I'll be posting while I'm down there or not. Will hopefully have alot of dirty adventures to report when I get back.

Later

My man

As requested here is a pic of my other half, Scooby. This was taken when I first brought home Kiddo.

Regrets and the pit whores

I got home last night and there was something in the live trap. It turned out to be a cat this time. Scooby seems to think it was the wild one that has been living in the neighbors shed. This morning I got up and went to take him to animal control and he had a wound on his forehead from trying to head but the cage trying to get out. I considered several times just letting him go. I don't mind stray cats in the yard, cuz they help with the mice. But I don't want cats spraying our house cuz with the window open it reeks and our cats freak out. I hope this was the one thats been doing it. I felt awful taking him in. It breaks my heart to do this. I wish people would take care of their pets.

On a brighter note, our new kitties are pit whores. They fucking love Scooby and my's arm pits. Clyde started it with getting in Sccoby's lap and nuzzling him and burying his head in his arm pit and pushing his face as hard as he could in there. Last night I was in bed and both of them tag teamed me taking turns grinding their faces in my arm pits. It was too cute, but drove me fucking crazy.

Kiddo and I groom each other also. He'll climb in my lap and I'll pet him and if I'm shirtless he will start licking my chest hair. The other day we were sitting in the bay window and I was brushing him and he raised his head and licked my titt. One of J's friends was over and witnessed it and said "That is so wrong". It was just one lick though and then he started licking my chest hair. I like being a mommy.

Catch and release

We're having problems with neighborhood cats again. I guess since we have 3 indoor cats now and the windows are open the outdoor ones feel the need to spray our house to mark territory. So I went over to Animal Control to borrow a live trap. Got it set up in the back yard and put some cat food in it.

When I got home last night I could see that there was something in the trap. I just figured in was a cat. Well....Scooby got a flash light and we went out to investigate. It wasn't a cat that we caught but a possum. Of course Animal Control will only take domesticated animals. So we took a little trip last night out of town and set the little bugger free to romp in the country side instead of the neighborhood. Those damn things scare the shit out of me but this one seemed to be quite docile, no hissing but he did bare his scary teeth. Hope the city possum adapts to country life. It was right near the river so he should be happy.

How time flys and corrupting young men

God I can't believe we leave next week for NOLA for Southern Decandence. Now that I now where the bars with the back rooms are....WATCH OUT! I'm not kidding, I probably won't be able to scrub the dirt off my knees for weeks. I can't even imagine being in a backroom during Decadence with all those hot horny men.

These Lips of Mine from Mark Weigle's Versatile CD

I learned why the Lord gave me wrists
When you slapped the handcuffs on
Then I praised God he gave me teeth
To get your zipper down
And as my mouth begins to water
I know that its true
These lips of mine were made for suckin' you

Polishing your belt buckle
Is what my foreheads for
My ears are here for you to grip
My knees to scrub your floor
And as my eyes begin to water
I know that its true
These lips of mine were made for suckin' you


Oh and on another note J the new young furry sexy man that rents a room from us refers to me as the sexy beast. He's also learning the don't ask don't tell rule. This weekend he asked about the power douche in the shower and...well.. I was drunk and I guess went into detail about it. Not to mention that Scooby showed him the attachments. He was horrified when I told him that the douche was the medium one that Fort Troff sells. I told him the next day he was lucky that I didn't give him a demonstration.

This weekend we were looking for something that our friend gave us last weekend when we went to his place. Scooby and I were listing the stuff that was in the goodie bag he gave us and when "the toy" was mentioned J put his hands over his ears and started lalalala'ing.
We are going to corrupt this young man yet.

Sometime last week

Scooby tried to stick his finger up my ass.

Me: Uhhh... Don't do that I might shit on your finger.
Scooby: Thanks ok, what do you think they made soap for.
Me: OMG! LOL........

My boyfriend in one sick puppy.

Thank you!

Hey everyone, I got second place for Drub's porn essay contest! Just wanted to thank everyone who voted for me. In case your just tuning in here is my nasty story.

In other news shit is looking up. It seems that my gardian angel has finally woke the fuck up. I sold my fucking 1970 caddy this morning. A big FUCK YES for that considering I've got about 3 grand worth of bills due next month. Also realized that I'm getting a 750. buck longevity bonus for being at my job for the last 15 yrs, which I'll get in the beginning of September. Plus the extra cash for renting the room to my new furry sexy young roomate. What's next?

God I better play the lotto. I've never had this much good luck hit so close together. Anyway, Happy Happy Joy Joy it's time to do my happy dance.

Gremlins, Deer camp, and the new roomate

I don't know if I've mentioned this but stuff is disappearing around the house. The first thing I noticed was an small antique pitcher that I used to water some of my small house plants. It disappeared before our 4th of July party and still has not turned up. The second was our friends house keys that we keep cuz he's out of town alot and has us stop in to check on things. Luckily we did find those after a day or two of hunting. Now I can't find my fucking flogger. God we just used it about a week or so ago. I spent some time today looking under furniture and in cabinets but nothing so far. We've been blaming this on gremlins or mischievious ghosts. I guess I need to burn some sage soon, that is suppose to get rid of stuff like that. It's probably just us though, our house is somewhat cluttered and we're are loosing our minds so things get lost pretty easily.

Yesterday we went to our friends families deercamp. This was the same friend that wanted us to go to his families beach house in last weekends fiasco. The deercamp house was very impressive. It was more like a hunting lodge than a typical deercamp, with tall ceilings and stuffed deer heads and antlers everywhere. He wanted us to go check out the pond that is on the property which was down this trail. 75% of the trial was well kept and mowed, the last 25% of the trail was a muddy bog. There was an old trail of palets but most were rotted and gone. If we'd had known the condition of the trail we'd of worn more protective foot and leg wear. Poor Scooby wore sandals. We finally reached the dock that went out into the pond, but all that consisted of was more palets that were semirotted. I'm surprised none of us didn't fall in. It was fun and adventurous all the same. We did find a couple of piles of field stones and took a couple home for the back yard.

Our new tennant is a landscaper so he's been bringing all kinds of plants to add to the yard. Now I'm going to have to get in the habit of watering occasionally. He also is very tidy and got after Scooby about his clutter and helped him straighten up today. The best so far was when he came down this morning shirtless with his lean furry body all exposed. Fuckin YUM!!! I think I'm gonna like this....

Friday kitty pic

Here's a pic of the kids. We've decided that Clyde the white one with black spots is gay. First he's always grooming himself. Not only does he clean his own butthole but his brothers as well. He'll even go into the litter box after his brother and make sure everything is buried completely. He doesn't eat much, cuz he's watching his weight of course. I know there's more but I can't remember right now.

His brother Kiddo on the other hand will eat anything. He loves cheese puffs, the fatty part of bacon, spagetti or any pasta for that matter, and of course potato chips.

In other news we are going to have a roomate. Our friend J is moving into one of our spare rooms. Him and his bf broke up this spring and he had moved back in with his parents, but I told him that he was more than welcome to move in since we get along so well. Plus he's in his early 20's and will probably be going out of town on the weekends to the "real gay bars". Ah the good ole days when a trip to Lansing or Detroit to the bars and clubbing all night was the thing to do. It should be interesting.

The hot tub party, Sundays fiasco and a kitty update

Last Saturday we went to a hot tub party. There was about a dozen or so people. The hosts had a great spread of food and livations. I ended up drinking the world. I first started with Vodka and lemonade. But there was just something about the taste that didn't do it for me so I switched to Jim Beam and Lemonade, which was much tastier. Then I tried one of those strawberry margarita's that are premade in a frozen tub. They were yummy but very sweet, so I only had one of those. I ended with a few beers and giving friend Thurston a blow job on the back patio.

Thurston and I have played on and off our entire friendship (about 20 yrs). He was the first guy that woke me up in the morning by sticking his cock in my mouth. I like a man who knows what he wants... Anyway the bj was brief since we didn't want to make a scene. I haven't blown him in about a year or two cuz it normally ends with him fucking my mouth senseless and he's a bit too long to the point that I always ended up throwing up just a bit in my mouth about the same time he cums. I'm there for the cum so when it ends and all I taste is sick, well that's no fun for me. So the bj was brief, we had fun, end of story...

Sunday ended up being a fiasco. One of our friends was in town and wanted us to go to his parents cabin on the bay. He wanted to drive separtely so he could take off from there and head home. We had to go pick up Thurston and left him in the our driveway with plans to meet at the gas station so we could follow since we weren't quite sure where it was at. Well I forgot to tell Thurston to bring his cell phone, we got to the gas station and our other friend wasn't there. The pay phone wasn't working so we figured that he had continued on and just expected us to call him. We drove up and found the street and drove the entire length and didn't see his vehicle. Thurston had some friends up there so he stopped in and they knew which cabin we were looking for. Got there and there was nobody there. Went back to Thurstons friends place and called his cell. It ended up that he had left his keys in our house and was stuck there, so we said fuck it and headed back home. We ended up BBQ'ing hamburgers at home and had a good time despite all the earlier confusion.

Oh and when we got home I found Kiddo up on the buffet with his head in a bag of potato chips. We really should have named him Starvin Marvin cuz he really has some food issues. Other than that the cats have been very well mannered and have been getting along great.

The contest

Hey everyone, I'm in the running for Drub's porn essay contest with my story "Dog Pound". So go over there and check out the dirty stories, crank your wank, and vote. I've read through a few and it looks like I've got some "Stiff" competion. Enjoy!

HNT

Kitty rim jobs, and lunch with father grinch

Is it ok to let your children rim each other? We have not had sex infront of our kitties yet and still they're learning to rim each other. It was too cute to watch them lick and clean each others faces, but I had no idea that they would exchange rim jobs also. Clyde even gave Puddy our 7 yr. old cat a rim job yesterday and suprisingly enough Puddy layed there and let him. Only when Clyde started to clean Puddy's junk is when he got upset and hissed at him. But hey, at least our cats will have nice sparkly clean butt holes.

God I had lunch with my father today. He's taken on the job of watching my 8 or 9yr old great neice during the summer to help my nephew and his wife save some money instead of paying for daycare. My father is in his mid to late 80's and is your typical grumpy old man. We went out for lunch and my gr8 neice orders fried cheese sticks. Like most kids and adults she would bite into the cheese stick and then stretch the cheese out about 4-5 inches. My father would then tell her to stop playing with her food. He also complained that she dropped her knife on the floor. ect..

Once we got back home she turned on the tv. She accidentally pushed the buttons on the remote and changed the channel and then it took her a couple of trys to find the station she was watching. Well this was just too much for my father and he made her turn off the tv. There is nothing to do for a kid at my dads house, plus it hit the triple digits today so it was too hot to play outside, and she was already bored with coloring. I felt sorry for her and it just reminded me of when I was a kid. Kids were supposed to be seen and not heard and god forbid if they have any fun. My neice ended up laying on the floor and picking at the floor vent. I really wanted to say something but I didn't want to get in a fight with my dad, so I just left. It was almost time for me to head to work anyway.

In other news the Bike Bash this last weekend wasn't as good as last year. It might have been the scorching temps or the periodic rain storms inbetween. I remember more motorcycles driving past the house last year. Considering the rain storms and the heat we decided to stay in. Scooby is still having problems with his meds. After taking them he gets very light headed and dizzy to the point that even a drive in the car will make him sick. We are both tired as hell for no apparent reason. I slept a good portion of the weekend which kind of worried Scoob. But its a full time job keeping up after four boys. (3 cats and the bf) Needless to say we haven't been getting much done on the house lately and really need to finish the siding on the back so I can get estimates on house insurance. Apparently I'm paying way too much. Hopefully we'll find some energy to finish up within the next four weeks. fingers crossed...