Monday, March 06, 2006

Cabin Fever rant and self doubt

January/February and somtimes March are the worst fuckin months of the year. At least for me mentally. I'm so fuckin tired of being stuck in the fuckin house for the last four months its driving me crazy. I want to be outside in the sun, unfortunately its only 30 degrees and its too fuckin cold. Being cold and stuck in the house so long makes me bitter and I'm tire of being both cold and bitter.

We still haven't found out anything on the house down south. The thought of actually getting it scares me because I don't know if we can handle another project. But I guess being scared is a good thing? I'm so burned out at work and it didn't help that someone tampered with my timeclock so I now have to stay later. Granted it's only five minutes but with a sucky mostly thankless job, 5 minutes is an eternity. God I'm going to be 40 this year and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Other than get the fuck out of this cold.

1 comment:

ManiacalMike said...

I totally understand your cabin fever. This is my husband and my first Winter in Michigan after our relocation from Las Vegas. From all accounts, this has been a mild winter. I hate to see what a heavy winter is like. When I lived in Lake Tahoe, we would get hella more snow than this, but the sun was always shining afterward, and it was much warmer. We can't wait to get out of here either. I hope you and scooby get your house in NOLA.