Monday, May 01, 2006

Weekend review

First of all my rash is finally gone. YEA! I'm beginning to think it was probably the dye/fluid that they gave me for the CT scan little over a week ago.

We got so much shit done this weekend.

First we got the sideyard fence expansion done. We've had the two extra fence panels for several years now. They've been sitting in the side yard proped up against the fence and luckily they faded enough that they almost matched the old fence.

Second we got a couple of pieces of drywall hung on the back porch wall. Enough that we were able to hang the old cupboard up that we just got a couple of weeks ago. God did that free up alot of space on the back porch. Granted its still packed full of shit but not as much now. Hoping to get moved back out there for the summer in a month. Fingers crossed.

And last but not least I got all 20 bags of mulch spread out over all my planting areas. I did this Sunday morning because traffic is nill at that time. I hate working out in the front yard when traffic it heavy. Like I've said in the past we are right near a busy corner and when the light is red everyone is usually rubber necking and checking out what I'm doing. Only a couple of times has someone yelled "Faggot" at me, but I still only like to work out in the front yard on Sunday mornings. I guess I'm just self consious that way.

I've also had an realization or epiphany. Considering that I've dealt on and off with depression since I was a kid. I've finally come to the conclusion that there is something about depression that only makes you remember the shitty things that has happened through out your life. At least for me that is. I know I've let shit in the past bother me for so long that I have difficulty remember the good things. So I've got to start focusing on the positve events in my life and hopefully it will help when I do go through my down time.

4 comments:

thomas said...

Your understanding of the nature of depression is right on track. People who suffer from depression tend to have a skewed cognitive basis for interpreting events and they have a habit of replaying bad past events or making events seem as if they were bad when in fact they weren’t. They do the same with present time events as well. As a psych nurse, I see depression daily in all it’s fascinating forms. Your plan to try and focus on the positive nature of events is primarily what we try to teach to people with depression.

Michael said...

Hey Thomas thanks so much for confirming that I'm on the right track. I don't know why it took me so long to see the pattern.

BriteYellowGun said...

I can't believe in this day and age people still yell things like
"Faggot" from the safety of their speeding car. Cowards. I hope you look up, smile and wave.

Michael said...

Not since I grew my beard has anyone yelled "Faggot" at me. Its probably why I won't shave it off.

The last guy that did it was stopped at the traffic light, he looked directy at the bf and I and said "fuckin faggots". It was very unsettling.